Thoughts/Feelings/Behaviour
The first thing to pay attention to is how your thoughts, feelings and behaviour are linked, like cogs in an engine:
Each ‘cog’ might be the most noticeable first, for instance:
· “I really liked the picture of that boy – are there more like that?” (thought) è search child-porn sites ( behaviour) è feel satisfied (feeling)
· feel aroused (feeling) è look for a schoolgirl in Habbo Hotel (behaviour) è “I bet I can get her to go private with me” (thought)
· masturbate over a downloaded video of a man penetrating a child (behaviour) è afterwards, feel disgusted (feeling) and depressed (feeling) è “I hate myself” (thought), “what’s wrong with me?” (thought)
When you’re quitting child-porn you’ll need to focus on what you’re thinking, feeling and doing when you have the urge to go online for child-sex or surf your own library.
TOP TIP: When you experience a pro-child sex thought, feeling or behaviour, make a note at that moment of the steps leading up to then. This will help expand your awareness of ‘preparatory’ thoughts etc .
© Chris Willoughby 2008-
